Yesterday, as many of my loyal followers know, was Ben's birthday. Much of the day was spent thinking of him during the good times. It was so difficult to not see his smiling face while opening presents, or going out to dinner, but I did my best for the both of us.
After work, Megs, John, Finn, and I went to visit him. I arrived first at the cemetery. It was a warm fall day, picture perfect. I sat on the ground next to him and gave him my update on life....not that he doesn't already know what's going on. I shared a glass of wine with him. Minutes later, the Lipford clan arrived. I took out the piece of cake that I picked up earlier in the day. As luck would have it, Meijer did not have any chocolate chip cookie cakes so I cried....cried at Meijer. However I got this piece of cake, and 3 cupcakes for free. I guess the staff must have really felt bad for the crazy widow. I just wish they would have given me the wine for free too....wink wink.
John, Megs, and Finn joined me on the ground next to his headstone. The wind was blowing...the cemetery was beautiful. We put the 30 candle in the cake and started to sing the happy birthday song. It was hard....Megs and I were sobbing. She came and sat behind me, and gave me the biggest hug. It is still shocking he is gone. We decided to let the wind blow the candles out. I have to say, Ben took forever to blow the candles out. The 30 was burning way down. It was as though he wanted us to stay. And just like in the movies, as the candles went out, a rainbow appeared. It was a rainbow that non of us have ever seen. Small, in the middle of the only white cloud in the sky, right over the cemetery. It was Ben. He were there. He was saying....I see you guys. I love you guys. And thank you so much John and Megs for caring for Linds. Trust me, I know she is a pain in the ass, but she needs you, and I will forever care for you all. My f-ing homeboy was right there with us. And as we packed up to leave, the rainbow disappeared. Don't tell me that was not Ben....it was.
In addition, DBone was at the Tigers game last night. It was no mistake that she was there, and it was no mistake they won. I am sure for his birthday, Ben asked for a Tigers win, and for a sign to let Linds know that I love her.....looks like both his wishes came true.
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What a beautiful and special moment for you, Linds. I am so happy that Ben revealed himself in that rainbow as just another reminder that he is always with you - no matter what. What a special love you both share - and always will! xoxo
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad that you got to experience this! God is amazing! His body may not be here but his spirit lives on. Mary
ReplyDeleteMan, Linds, this is one of your only posts I didn't read as soon as you put it up. What a beautiful story. I miss Ben too. And just like you, I believe the rainbow was Ben thanking you and the Lipfords for an amazing birthday present. Stay strong, Lindsay, remember, Ben is watching over you.
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