The Retrun of the Ugly Truth

So last week as some of you know, B missed out on Chemo. This came as a pretty big surprise to both B and I. We found out after the weekly blood work, that B's blood counts were too low to undergo Chemo. I actually was working and only came to find out about this when I noticed that I had 3 missed calls from my hubby. Not to mention one call came from Casa De Muttz. I knew it was either B or some burgler was pulling the biggest fast one and was calling me at work to report that he just packed up our flat screen TV as well as our prize possessions, Bear and Jetta. B was pretty shook up and I decided to take and early lunch and come home to spend some time with B and D Bone. Poor D Done drove all the way in from the D only to find out that B was not having Chemo. We ended up playing cards and hanging out before I headed back to work. B was just worried that his counts were low as a result of the disease. It took quite a bit of reassuring that it was in fact the chemo and not the cancer causing the low blood counts. Not to mention that we both have to prepare a week in advance for chemo, so to not have Chemo really threw a wrench in our schedules.......grrrr. I guess however this would explain why B has been so so so tired. I mean at this point I could tell B that I bought a Louis Vuitton Bag and acutally tell him without him remembering....trust me I haven't done it, but food for thought.

On top of that B has been feeling really bad again. His pain levels are back where they were. So here is the ugly truth. Things are not great here at the Muttz house, so no more faking like they are. We have had some really really hard weeks. B's pain is paralyzing and brings tears to his eyes. How heartbreaking.....loud sigh. He can't get comfortable...not on the couch, or in the chair, or in the bed, or in the car....he is NEVER comfortable. I have no idea how he teaches, but he throws on his back pack and strolls into class every week and never lets on to his students how much he is hurting. I actually had a heart to heart with B about being honest with everyone about how he feels. No more faking it...so the truth is out.

We also went home this past weekend for the Jewish Holidays. We were able to see family and friends that haven't seen B in some time. We had our annual breaking of the fast with the Schneider family at Tam, and as usual it was awesome. However B would say "who gets just the salad bar after fasting all day? That is not normal for anyone but L." I am here to tell you that this salad bar is what dreams are made of, and I can't help myself. I love me some salad, and so I went back for more...what can I say, I am a rabbit. And then we stopped by Auntie E's to see the Resnick Family and to watch the MSU game, and what a game it was. I know that everyone fasted this year for B and for his health.

And now we are onto the almighty scan. B has had such bad and debilitating pain that they are scanning B tomorrow when he is at the cancer center. And we will find out tomorrow where we are at cancer wise. Chemo is scheduled for tomorrow as long as his counts are up, and then he will be off to get a CAT scan, and then back up to the 3rd floor to wrap up the Chemo for the day. B is convinced that he will not have chemo tomorrow because he believes his counts will still be too low....let's hope they aren't! Both B and I are worried. With B feeling so bad we are so scared...actually worried does not even begin to describe how we feel. I can only hope that all of you never have to experience this. This is what I would describe as hell on earth. So please pray for Team Muttz. I am sorry for being dramatic but this is the truth...take it or leave it!

Finally I would like to give a shout out to my cousin who is competing in Art Prize this week. Her painting, as funny as it is, is that of cancer cells. Her painting is in the Plaza Towers on Fulton St. so check it out. Mandy Presley......and she had the idea before B's diagnosis.